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Saturday, October 24, 2009
[Now listening to: Before I Decay ][by: the GazettE]
[mood: mean]
Yo! Hizashiburi desu! Hahaha! You thought my blog was on hiatus or have been dropped off completely by the lousy blog mistress, am I right?!?!
Well, news for you guys, you were right but wrong! Bwahahahaha! Now, the evil mistress is back to bum you away once again with different posts on different stuffs that's going in and out of my world. Hahaha! As if there's someone who's interested, right? Oh well... XD
Moving on, my writing has been stopped for a while but now I'm back, my 2 laptops went down and as of the moment, I've been writing my stories manually. Yep, you got that right. With the traditional, same old pen and paper routine. I've been writing a story that could range to 4 to 5 chapters depending on my mood to write or if I'm able to do it despite my tough schedule. I know, it's my Semestral break, but I can't help it if I still got things to do. Good thing it's not school stuff for now. And I still somehow have my time.
Things to Do:
* Need to find a work (a part-time actually)
* Need to finish editing pictures
* Need to finish posting those pictures XD
* Need to finish writing my story
* Need to start my band-type story
* Need to finish my accessory
Goodness! I have so many things to do! I left them hanging the last time due to my school works and all and now I'm back to face it head on! Hahaha!
I miss writing, I hope nothing has changed in the way that I write, or if there's a change, I hope it's in a good way, not the other way around....
And now, for a little flashback of what happened to me these past few years... or days or....just past. XD
WORK
Oh yeah, due to some events that just had happened recently (I so love what happened, the ramblings, the fight, and all! Hahahaha! I'm so mean) , I chose to find a part-time job as I study, in order for me to earn some few bucks and save a little for my plans in life as I graduate from college and from my hell-of-a-life. I'm sick and tired of the shits and the freaking ramblings of the drama queen so I decided that I should find a work that could save her few money and let me do what I want for good.
I'm here once again in her custody because of what happened, I got a flu and when my best friend brought me in her house, when she arrive, gosh, I never thought that the day would come that I'll be ashamed not for myself but for my friend who've seen what she's like when she scolds me or when the two of us argue. That triggered me to finally stood my ground. I've had it! I've had enough of it! I stood up even I was sick that night and we argued, I indeed yelled at her, in front of my friend.
I agree with you, it was a bad thing to do, if you'll gonna say that. But really, it's not me who started it! She was the one who had just slammed the door open and ordered for me to stay at her place forever considering the fact that I was sick (actually, I was sick for 2 days, she didn't know, I slept with my friend's house, telling that we got some homework to finish coz I can't go home that night because I was, sick) that night and there's a person beside me (my friend who helped me get home) who's sleeping. Or at least, pretending to.
I don't want to stay here in this place where she's there too, but I guess for now, I have no choice, since she said that she can't shoulder the finance in the place where I'm staying, and my uncle and cousin had agreed of the separation, I'm somehow forced to stay here, but not really since I have a back-up plan: to stay at my friend's apartment and share the half of the rent in the place. But I have to keep it a secret to her and save my money. For now, I'll agree to her plans and wants, just for a little while, since my graduation would be a year and a half away from my grasps, but my decision of finding a work is still as hard as a rock. In order for me to prepare if I decided to move out of this place soon, I need to find a work that could help me shoulder my at least half of my expenses and could fulfill my needs and wants.
Right now, I'm looking for a possible job that I could fulfill the requirements they need for a person like me. Well, it's not only me. My friend and I were both gonna find work. You know, financial needs. It's a sad thing not to have money, really. Tsk...
PHOTOGRAPHY
Kyaaa!!!
Last 16th I just had my very first photoshoot with my college barkda, "GlammatZ" for our plates in our Photo class. The topic was "Japanese Fashion."
It was not a very good day to begin with but it was fun since it was my and Vylri's first time taking portrait photos outside and taking pictures of my friends as my models. Actually, all of us should be models including me, but when it was about to be my turn, I fell dizzy and it was then we all realized that I had a flu. So the next day, one of my barkada who didn't went in the said shoot posed in my stead. (while I was dozing my ass off away in our university clinic.) Since others had forgotten their clothes/costumes for the shoot, I brought some pairs from my dusty wardrobe for them to use. XD
Right now, we're currently planning for our real project as a group. Before this year ends, we plan to make it happen. I want to make a portfolio of our group, in order to preserve those precious memories. Also, I want everyone of them to have a portfolio that they could use when they apply to work as a model or a photographer or something like that. I plan to make one myself too, for it could be useful when someday I'll take this hobby of mine into another level.
I'll be posting the pictures of our photoshoot soon. So kindly wait for my updates on my dA photography account.
I'll be happy if you leave constructive comments in regards to my photos, thank you very much. ^_^
And this is it for my report. 'Til next time unknown entities. Ja ne.
>end transmission<
Labels: photography, rants, return, thoughts, work
"Loveless" posted on; 2:24 PM
Sunday, July 12, 2009
[Now listening to: Shin Ai][by: Nana Mizuki]
[mood: sick]
yep! You got it right! XD I'm currently having a fever for almost four days now. And by any chance, this damn fever won't go away.
Eh di ba may A(H1N1) churva? In our school, we have this small gadget that checks your temperature, if you passed it, they'll stamped you with something like "Passed in Temperature Scan...blah blah..." mukha ka tuloy parang baboy na dumaan sa masusing pagsisisayasat kung di ba iyon double dead or nag-suicide.
Hehehe!
Anyways, it's been a month since I posted on my blog. Grabe sobrang hectic sa school! Napaghahalataang junior na aketch! Huwaaah!!!!
Just recently, katatapos lang ng presentation namin for Drama100. Musical ang genre na napili for our group, ako at ang collab ko ang gumawa ng script. It's like a parody for the famous KDrama, BOF
Pagdating sa presentation, medyo nagkagulu-gulo na. Still, I can say that it went fine. Bawi na lang ulit next time. ^_^
At last, nakakapagsulat na ulit ako ng stories. But I won't be posting them for a while. I'll be asking some permissions since I already gave those stories to someone. Kung papayag sila, I might post it here. Nevertheless, I'll try to post some stories here na hindi ko pa naipopost. Hehehehe! XD
Labels: events, rants, thoughts
"Loveless" posted on; 2:36 PM
Thursday, June 11, 2009
[Now listening to: Insomnia][by: Wheesung]
[mood: deranged]
Busy streets in the middle of the day.
Suot ang kanyang favorite shades and a rugged outfit, tahimik lang niyang pinapanood ang paroo't parito ng mga taong alam niya kung saan ang punta. Sa mga trabaho nila.
Siya rin dapat ay nagtatrabaho na, pero binigyan niya ng panahon ang sarili para makalabas sa magulo at nakakapagod niyang mundo. He gave himself a break.
Sumandal siya sa steel railing ng isang kilalang establishment at inilagay ang earphones sa kanyang tainga.
It was a melody he composed for almost a week now. At hanggang ngayon, wala pa rin siyang maisip na lyrics na pwedeng mailagay doon.
And for the first time, nangyari iyon sa kanya. That's the reason why he decided to go outside his condominium. To freshen up his mind.
He closed his eyes and let the booming sound coming from his earphones succumb him completely. Humming softly, tila isang pinto ang biglang lumitaw sa kanyang mundo. As he opened it inside his mind, letters started to appear one by one. Slowly forming up words. And as words were slowly being produced, scenes started to pop out like a movie playing inside his brain... Resulting into a story fitting into the melody he was listening to.
In whispers, he sang the lyrics that formed in his mind...
Underneath those petals was your empty soul...
With bare hands,I held your sharp thorns
Yelling in silent pain, I devour your color
Dig deeper my love...
Grasp for.... my devil rose
Matapos ang sabayan ang pinakikinggan, binuksan niya ang kanyang mga mata. He smirked as he raised his shades to greet the shining sun.
Not bad... wika niya sa sarili.
He stood up and placed his hand inside his jean-pockets. Ibinaba na rin niya ang earphones sa kanyang balikat nang magsimula siyang maglakad. He has to go back inside his condo bago niya makalimutan ang kinanta niya...
Sabi na nga ba, all he needed was a little bit of fresh air...
>end<
*sigh of relief* my gulay. Natapos din i-type ang isang ito. What is this? This is my introduction for my upcoming story. Let's just say that my first taglish story na yaoi? Kayanin ko kaya? Bwahahahaha! Wuuu!!! XD
I can't wait to start this project. Kaunti na lang mauumpisahan ko na rin siya.
Oh please don't steal the line. I made that. Don't be bad. Kakagatin ko kayo.
O sige na, I have to sleep. I'll try to update next time.. XD
Labels: original, stories, yaoi
"Loveless" posted on; 11:48 PM
Sunday, May 24, 2009
[Now Listening to: Glamorous Sky (English Version)][by: Hyde]
[mood: bored]
Holding my pen, I played it with my fingers. Thinking of what to write next, my demented brain brought up the most interesting idea...
"What if I write a letter for myself?"
You got that write! Err... I mean right! Haha!
And because I'm so bored to think, I've decided to post the letter in a mix of Tagalog and English or what language that suits my mood right now. Hahaha!
*cough cough*
So, here it goes!
Dear mE,
Hello.
How are you? Oh wait, do I really have to ask that? I know that you're fine and still struggling to the flowing substance called life...
Maraming nangyari sa iyo nitong mga nakaraang taon and up to now, I'm very proud that you're still clinging on.
You always say that whenever you make some changes in your hair, there's a reason as to why you want to do it..
Sa buwan pa lang na ito, maraming kaganapan ang nangyari sa iyo. Nandiyan ang another issue ng parents mo for their separation, people leaving, and right now, sinusubukan mong mag-adjust sa loob ng apartment niyo na kung saan ang kapatid mo, at ang mama mo ay kasalukuyang nakatira kasama mo (together with your 2 tito, 2 maids, and your 2 pinsans na kung saan iyong isa ay natutulog sa umaga due to her shift in the cca).
Mainit ba sa bago mong kwarto mo ngayon? I know, your privacy was once again, shaved off by your mother. Hindi na ikaw ang gumagamit ng kama mo kundi sila na ng kapatid mo at ikaw ay kasama ng mga kasambahay mo sa kabilang kwarto. Sa malaking kwarto na kahit naman malaki ay parang dinaig pa ang impiyerno sa init.
Kahit mahirap, pilitin na lang tiisin. Kapag hindi na kaya, tiisin pa rin. In a way, naging maganda rin ang naidulot ng pagtira nila diyan, despite sa ingay ng apartment dahil sa kapatid mong pasaway. Kasi may mga gamit na kayo ngayon na wala dati! In short, nagmukha na nga siyang tirahan ng mga tao at hindi ng mga nagpapanggap lang na tao.
I just heard recently that something happened to you. I know that it hurts a lot. Pero dapat matuto kang iwan ang mga bagay na nangyari na. I mean come on! Huwag kang selfish. Hindi lang ikaw ang nasasaktan kapag umiiyak ka. Don't think of those people who already left. Think of those who stayed beside you. After all, sila naman talaga ang importante dahil hindi ka nila iniwan nung mga panahon wala kang mapagsabihan ng nararamdaman... You have to let go of them for you to be free na rin. I know you can do that. Ikaw pa. Huwag kang mag-alala dahil hindi ka na naman nag-iisa sa paglalakad mo. Andiyan na
Oh, how was the vacation? Masaya akong malaman na sobrang nag-enjoy kasama ang napakahalagang tao sa buhay mo. Walang araw na hindi ka nakangiti at tumatawa. And I'm very much happy that you enjoyed every single moment with that person. A glimpse of the future of the both of you. I know, it will come true. Just continue to believe in it, eventually, that day will come where you can be very happy. Living with your other half...
Have you even noticed the changes in you? Unti-unti, your opening up your world... And I'm very thankful that you met your other half. Your future. Mas naging malinaw ang nakikita mong future ngayon kumpara noon. Dati, wala kang pakialam. Daig mo pa ang zombie sa sobrang monotonous every day, pero ngayon, you look forward every day with a smile on your face. Naks! Iba talaga ang nagagawa kapag tinamaan 'no?
Continue to be happy with your future, dear. And be yourself. At last, you have given the chance to be feel this extreme happiness you never thought you'll be having in your life... Patuloy mong alagaan at pasiyahin ang taong mahal mo. Dahil alam kong iyon din ang kaligayahan mo. To love and be loved is the most extreme happiness of all.
Alam ko, unti-unti ka na rin nakaka-recover sa lahat-lahat. Isa pa, malapit na ang pasukan. You should be happy. Dahil magkaka-pera ka na ulit! At makikita mo na
You've changed a lot... and I'm very happy in that changes...
'Til next letter ulit. I've ran out of what to say to you.
P.S. How's your writing going by the way? Sana makapag-sulat ka na ulit. Whatever that's troubling you, kung meron man, I hope you overcome it.
Until then,
Self.
"Loveless" posted on; 8:11 PM
Thursday, April 16, 2009
[Now Playing: Gather Roses][by: ScreW]
[Mood: hungry]
Whew!
Finally, I'm done with fixing my blog layout.
Yep. As you can see, it's Ruki from the band, the GazettE. His outfit in Taion is one of my favourites. But the Mad Hatter's costume in Cockroach was the best for me.
Other than that, today's the welcome party of my mom's boyfriend. He came here last tuesday and now, we're celebrating his arrival later after working hours. J, (shall be named this way for privacy, haha) came from U.K. and they met in a social networking site that I won't be mentioning here. They became lovers last year, so it's their first time in meeting in person.
I've met J a couple of times before in the net when I go to mom's office here at the shop. The guy seems nice and his parents like my mom. And I can see how much they love each other (talk about chatting and talking in her laptop almost all day everyday).
He decided to see my mom last January. And now that he's here, mom's with him since he arrived at the airport. Where going to celebrate her birthday in advance because J and my mom will going to Bohol and have a vacation there. So I won't be seeing her when her birthday comes. So, it's kinda like she'll celebrating her birthday with J alone. Or so it seems. Then he'll gonna stay at our house for a couple of days...
To make it short, later tonight, I'm gonna be the one who'll take photos and video of the celebration... Then I have to edit it and give to J as a souvernir before he go back to his country. This was a request from mom.
I can't say that I don't really like the guy, because as I have said, he's a nice guy. I don't know. I'm just somehow annoyed. About what? I don't really know. Maybe it's the fact that a person will be entering our lives...A someone to her and my little brother... but a perfect stranger to me even though I've talked to him for a couple of times.
Oh well, I'm just wishing my mom to find her happiness in J. I just want her to fulfill her dreams and see her smile. So that all of us can move on... especially mom and my little brother...
As for me, I'm moving on in my own way... Haha!
Labels: celebration, events, rants, thoughts, vacation, work
"Loveless" posted on; 3:31 PM
Sunday, April 12, 2009
[now playing: Thinking of You][by: Katy Perry]
[mood: frustrated and slightly annoyed]
Okay, okay.
Hello gents and ladies. Finally I got my butt moving once again to post something on my blog. *breathes heavily*
I'm having my summer job here at my mom's place. Well, I can't really call it a summer job but it kinda matches the idea. Since it's summer here and I'm working at my mom's place or rather, shop.
I'm working as a cashier-slash-saleslady here in her place, but the twist was I can have free all-internet access here at her shop since it has one. Haha! But really now, I'm not the talkative I-convince-you-buy kind of person so I mostly stay beside the table and take in-charge of the money being taken in and out of the cashbox. I'm working for almost two weeks now and I still do not know the pricings of different mobile phones up to their cases and other accessories that a mobile phone has. So yeah, I'm kind of a lazy bum here but heck, I was offered here to work as a cashier only, not a saleslady! *pout*
*sigh*
It's not really bad after all, and I'm trying to work very hard, it's just that, I know this work's really not for me. I don't like staying in a place with crowded people and entertaining people. I know that my course is really attached to people but I'm more the anti-social type. Not really anti-social per se but a crowd more than 15 and I don't know their names, it makes me crazy. The day I'm always looking forward to was the payday. Yeah I know, I'm addicted to green stash. Believe me, it's so sad not having enough money. Now I know how hard it is to earn it.
Anyways, I can still have fun in my work you know, since I have the internet access all by myself, I can do whatever I want. It's been a while since I've visited sites that I joined long ago, now, I can stay as long as I want in front of my laptop (as long as there's no customer).
Recently, I've been starting to write some short fics once again. It's mixed in Filipino and English. I'm also writing an English story, but I think it will take me some time to finish it. Good luck, me! Give it all you got!
As we speak, I'm writing my second story today. I'm doubting if I can post it here, since I'm intending to make 3 stories today and give it to someone... So maybe I'll just make another one and post it here, since I said last time that I'll be posting stories here. I'm still not done on my second one and I'm just taking a little break since when I start to write my thoughts, mom would always knock at the wall calling me to attend some errands for her. I took this opportunity to let it out here since I'm not sure if I can gather that "drive" again to continue writing it any minute now.
Whew! That's kind of a long post. (I hope it is long...)
Oh, and I'm starting to read mangas once again. Just sharing a little fact. *laughs*
See you again!
=Chiharu=
Labels: rants, return, thoughts, vacation, work
"Loveless" posted on; 7:21 PM
Saturday, March 21, 2009
[Now Playing: Galileo][by:LM.C]
[mood: energetic]
Woohoo!!! Hello, summer!!!
Heat.
Sweat.
And more heat!
At last, summer's around and everyone's feeling it. Whether its a good or a bad thing, I don't know. What I know is that school's finally over and I can have fun, fun, F-U-N! Woohoo!!!
On the other hand, I think I shouldn't be celebrating to much, I should be worried instead. Our class card will be released on the 24th of the month. I wonder if I'll pass all of the subjects. I hope I'll pass. It's okay if the grades aren't high. As long as I don't have a failed subject, it's okay. I really hope I'll pass all of them. *prays*
And speaking of summer, me and my friends will be having our swimming next week! Woohoo! I'm looking forward in taking a splash in blue waters! I still can't have enough even though I almost drowned last summer. Oh well, it's because of my stupidity why that incident happened anyway. *laughs*
How about you guys, are you looking forward in your summer too? I hope you do. Enjoy the vacation!!!
Labels: vacation
"Loveless" posted on; 8:10 PM
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